badtrip aku...

friday na ulet...
gala na ulet...
khapon, dmi ytang d n2loy..
c jedd, n klabanin c _____.. c adrian, my sasabihin dw.. jollibee nmin ni karla, at usapang siryus nmen ulet ni karla.. paglalaro ni xander, paglalaro ko.. pupunta aku ng national.. at.. d q alam, un lng naaalala ku eh.. ung s paglalaro ni xander, d nia mgawa kc d nia kya saktan c _______, same thing w/ me..ung samen ni karla kc umuwi kmi agad.. ky jedd nttkot dw xa.. c dri, d q dn alam.. pagpunta q ng national d n2loy kc lumabas kmi ni ed.. at un n un.. badtrip aku khapon eh.. ewan, bmawi s last part ng araw, dhil ky coke, at ky ed.. mga lalake ko.. hehe:)

d q n ikkwento ung 2ngkol ky coke kc bka maobvious.. kilala nman yata nia n sya un eh.. kng badtrip aku khapon, mas badtrip aku ngaun.. start ng araw, nsa pila aku ng boys dhil s "napakaayos" n pila ng girls at nung bags dhil dun, ktabi ko ung "bespren" ni karla.. (peace out!), d q npaxerox ung papel dun s english, tma ung sgot q s physics d nman aq tnatwag..(babaw nman.. T_T) chem, d aq nkikinig muntik n kming mhuli nila xander, math, d ntapos ung sw(babaw ulet..) hr, auditor aq ng gabay ng wika.. (haha, masaya pla un, ang inaasam ko eh level rep lng, pero auditor aku, salamat s mga port, terd, at sekend yir na bumoto sken..hehe :D) Lunch, sbrang nagmadali dhil s miting.. SS, kulang ang report.. pero okey na rin.. arts, tma ung illustration okey na rin.. Fil, wla nman..(selos portion lng.. ampf..) THE, d q ngawa ung stitch, ABR, dmi nmeng kulang.. clean up time, c karla, d nkapag audi, pero nging masaya kmi sa date nmen eh.. hehe actuali, dun q nlaman n karla and I-MEANT TO BE FRIENDS dmi nmeng similarities, cmula dun s mga gago, hanggang s ngaun, xet, prehong preho.. tpos nun uwi, salamat sa mama ni karla..at s knya n rn..:D

6:30 n.. lbas ulit with ed.. yoko ikwento lhat e22 n lng.
bnura ko ang conversation namen ni karla dhil delikado.. haha.
kng gs2 nio mlaman, tnungin nio n lng ako...

ahh.. badtrip tlga un.. ewan q s knya.. **che, bwicit, argghh.. prang ewan. bsta, bwicit ulit. hmp.

c coke nman badtrip dn un.. mejo ok.. pero badtrip ulet, sana msaya n q ulet bkas, s sunday o sa monday.. *sigh*

badtrip.. T_T

still.. thinking.

d dapat aq magpopost ngaun eh.. kso nkita q s imeem ung 2 kanta, nxt tym ko ipopost... masaya ngayon.. nkasama ko c coke :D hehe lagi naman eh, problemado pa aq dun sa isa.. pero at least, ako ay..

masaya..=)

nag-iisip pa rin...

friday p last post ko tama?

busy n kasi, kaya d maxado makapgpost..

mejo gc eh.. MEJO lng. haha. ruther reunion nung friday, hertz gala nung saturday.. suppose to be, practice un, eh, nagkalabuan dhil dun s boys. ganito kac yon, my practice by nine, umalis aq ng bahay ng nine thinking n pagdting q ng paco park, my tao n, since wla p, nagjollibee mna aq ksama q c ard. tpos nagdtingan n c clasm8s.. cla pete, dhea, bevs, pauline.. tpos ung ibang boys nsa PCA. naglalaro.. [magaling.. hmp!] so punta kmi ng PCA, pagod n q nun, so balak q, magstay n mna.. eh walk out drama c bevs.. d q alam kng susunod aq.. kac andun p c pete at pauline.. tpos usap kming tatlo..

"kung magwawalk out lng cla wla taung mgagawa.."
"oo nga emae.., anu n ggwin nten..?"
"gani2 n lng, tutal gs2 nila maglaro, bhala cla, magbbgay n lng aq ng time.."
"waw. understanding!"
"g***, pntahan mo cla bevs dun.. pagod n q.."

so un, lmapit c jaycee, cnabi ko ung ggwin.. ok nman daw, phinga konti, blik s paco park, kwentuhan.. kwentuhan.. dmating dn cla, pero nonsense, dmating man cla, wla p ring nangyari, prang lumipat lng cla ng place para maglaro ng basketbol. kainis. tsk. =

so, kwentuhan at kodakan ang nangyari, kng may practice man, wla p rn.. 2 o'clock n. kylangan umuwi. iniwan aq nung ksabay qng portyir, iniwan dn aq ni karla so, c adrian ang ksabay q.. (macpag yan, gs2 p maglaro bago umuwi =.., d nman aq mxadong naglalaro kaya un, lrt agad.) kwentuhan ulit. mejo matagal, pero nkauwi rin. masaket ulo q pag uwi.. ayoko n ikwento ung susunod n nangyari.

sunday n. pmunta c ed s bhay, usap-usap. naging masaya, pero ds time d n q cgurado. gus2 niang ibalik ulet lhat, ok lng. maghiging masaya, naiilang n aq s knya, parang, magiging msaya pag bmalik lhat pero aq, tkot n. prang d n tlga aq cgurado, 100% p rn nman kso, sobrang ntatakot n q. ol ds time n wla xa, bnaling q atensyon q s iba. pnilit qng mging masaya khit mhirap. tpos, ngaun...

ewan.ewan.

nung nag-usap kmi ni adri, prang related, mejo lng nman, ang pagkakaiba, nag iicp c adri, c ed hinde..

monday. mejo mdameng assignments, kaya d q n inalala ung mga nangyari. pero astig ang girls, my hartrab n cla, wla p ngang one month..haha. oo nga pala, bday ni francis, kaya ky francis, BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY. 15 p lng yan, portyir n. choir yan, maganda boses eh,. swerte girlfriend. haha. nagkausap uli kmi ni dri, ym lng, xet, related tlga, para kcng, ewan ang hirap explain.. kaya msarap kausap un c dri, nkakarelate aq. haha.

tuesday n. pambungad ng umaga c francis. xa ung nagbeat, nsa pila nman aq ng linnae, trip trip, ang calvin kase, nsa pila namen, kaya magulo. w8 oo nga pla.. HERTZ!!! issue, may gs2 c DJ ky jeralyn.. haha. wla lng, nanglalaglag haha. nanghina aq s subjects after lunch. i wasn't able to eat my lunch =( dmi ginawa, hilong hilo n aq s ABR, bti gnicng aq ng pangungulit ni arnan at jake. un mejo nagicng. uwian n. andming mascian s lrt. nkaka2wa. ang ingay, mlungkot lng kc aq unang bumaba. ampf..

nsabi q n b n bnabling q atensyon s iba? oo un n un. d nman s ginagmit q lng ung taong un, pero i admit. MEJO nagseselos aq s knya.. pag un ang cnasbi nya.. pero uki n rn un, masaya aq pagksama ko sya, nkakalimtan qng mag icp 2ngkol ky ed pag magkausap kmi, aus n un, kesa nman, nbabaliw aq kaiicp dun s isa. pero ayoko rn nmang umasa s knya, prang ewan. bsta msaya aq pag ksama ko un. itago nten xa s pangalang "coke".. haha, aus, my code name p.

cge d2 n lng.

gudnayt at aylabyo.

=)

happy but tired.

masaya.

these past few days, d aq nkpg post dhil s pgod. d aq nkk2log ng maaga. pnakamaagang 2log q n ang 1230, un, puyat. sobrang puyat, ngaun lng aq nka2log ulet. wla n qng maxadong irerecall for the days n d aq nkpgpost, wlang nangyaring maganda. siguro ung mejo naaalala ko lng ung ikkwento q.

khapon, d q ksabay c karla umuwi, sinusundo kc xa pag thursday. so, c jason lng ksama ko. pagbaba s vito cruz, kmain kmi dun s "EGG.... something", d q n maalala eh. masarap ung kwek-kwek dun. pagktpos uwi.

un, eto n. masaya knina. dmatng aq s skul, kmanta ung calvin, ok n sna eh. kso d nman mxado nrinig ung voice, sayang, posturang postura p nman cla. mtagal ung klase, inaabangan q kc ung homeroom period, para wla aq s klase. at dhil ayoko magklase. hayy. homeroom period n dn. all first three officers kylangan s audi. vote.vote. un, forum n. kawawa ang first year, npagkaisahan cla, pero cguro nman tma lng un, cla dn ang my ksalanan, d nman namen cla ginegeneralze eh, pero s batch lng nila nkkta un, kaya cla tlga. akalain mo b nman, pati ang SSG Vice Pres. n c Bonry dorado minura! Ang pagkakakwento niya,

nabunggo ako nung first year, xempre nag sori ako.
nawindang ako nung cnabi nyang ayos k ah!
PI mo!

waw. tma b nman un, wla n clang respeto.knina 2loy namukadkad n naman ang bunganga ko kakatalak. haha kawawa tlga freshies. aww.un, masaya nman. wla c okafor, sbi ng higher years normal n dw un. so tpos nun, fil, sabayang bigkas. kmusta nman ang uy kilig factor namin? haha. d kmi pmasok s THE at ABR, kmi lng nila adri, jake, dhea, kat, at marami png iba.nagpintura kmi ng M-12 w/c is our lovely homeroom, kaso nman twice or thrice lng namin nagagamit un no. buti pang fourth year, 4 days a week. amf. d nmin natapos pag paint, nxt wik n lng ttpucn. masaya hbng nagawa dun, pnagttripan nila ang precdnte nila. amf. aq lng dw ang d nanglibre s lhat ng officer n nandun. g*** tlaga mga un.

after nun, club fair n. at first, nasa icp ko gabay lng, kc dun n tlga aq, at officer aq dun. kso dmami, nadagdag ung STEP-YECS, YMCA, Research, Techno, PION, ATOMOS, KOS,GSP,MATH, COMSOC at GABAY, all in all, 11 clubs lng nman. gudlak sken. nkk2wa cla. kng anu anong freebies at stamp ang ibbgay nila sau, merong lobo, yema, at ung isa, according to francis, ay kiss daw. hmf. andming clubs, nkk2wa nman. in short, sobrang dumi ng braso ko knina dhil s dmi ng stamp n nkuha ko. ang hirap p tanggalin. nagpnta muna aq ng astral bgo umuwi kaya ang dugyut ko.

astral. RUTHER, miss ko n kau, sobra!! ansaya s astral, ultra-mega super duper saya! nmiss ko tlga cla. ung ibng pic, bkas n lng, ok?..

namiss ko clang lhat! lalu n ang trio. aylabyo guys!

tpos nun, uwi kmi ni karla, nkita p nmin c adri. masaya. haha.

bsta, masaya aq ngaung araw n ito.

boredom

NOTE: ang post na ito ay resulta ng boredom. wlang blak ptamaan o saktan.

hay.

ako si jeremae de guzman. 14 years old, at kasalukuyang walang magawa sa buhay. Nagaaral ako ngayon sa Mataas na Paaralang Pang-Agham ng Maynila. Boring sa Paaralang ito pero masaya(ikaw na bahala umintindi.) Masaya, lalu na pag malakas ang tama ng teacher at pag sumasabay ang kabaliwan ng estudyante s teacher nia. Boring naman pag ang alam lng sbihin ng teacher eh yung laman ng lesson plan nia.(di na ko magmemention ng pangalan). Ginagawa ko ang basurang ito habang nasa **. Di boring ang klaseng ito, nakakatuwa nga eh. Kaya ko to ginawa ay dahil wala akong magawa habang nagrereport ang isang kaklase. Kinuha nia kasi ang notebook ko kya wla akong masulatan. At! ginawa pa niyang scratch. Well, ok lang nman n gwin nyang scratch yun dhil muka nman yong bsura. (kahit papano malinis un, ung likod lng..)

natapos ang boring na report. nagalit c teacher. so, sermon.sermon.sermon. tawa.tawa.tawa. aus magsermon ang teacher na un di mo alam kung seryoso o hinde. kung tatawa ka o ccmangot o iiwas ng tingin dhil sa laki ng mata nia.nag sermon sya ng nagsermon. kmi? tumawa, huminto. tumawa, hinto ulet.

umuwi na kmi ni karla. nag-usap. nag-usap. madamdamin ang pnag-usapan nmin. mamaya n dhil bka mwalan aq ng gana.dumaan ako ng NATIONAL BOOKSTORE (taft ave.,). di sapat ang pera ko, blik s bhay. mlapit lng nman bhay ko kaya mlakas ang loob kong bmalik dun. naging trapik ang daan. may nkita aqng estudyante, trapik, tinry nyang tpikin ung kbilang sasakyan. para syang tanga. di nia alam na baka maputol ang kamay nia don. pero wla aqng mggwa, un ang gs2 nia. pagkauwi sa bhay, nagplit lng, blik s NB. tpos. humarap na aq s kompyuter. at gmawa "kunyari" ng asayments.

SERYOSO. ngayon?. natatakot ako. kinakabahan ako. nasisiyahan ako. nagagalit ako. nalilito ako. hindi ko alam. GAGO KA ED! peste. d q alam. gs2 qng bmalik pero ayaw ko. mahal ko pa sya pero ayaw ko na. naguguluhan ako. tama n. tama n

totoo k! in english, FACT YOU

haha.

kktpos q lng mbasa ang "Paboritong Libro ni Hudas" by Bob Ong.haha. andmi kong n22nan. like, ipis, utot, trip s baguio at about God. actually mrami png iba eh. nkktwa, tlga. pero bkit nkktwa? i guess, dhil nag ssbi xa ng totoo. i min, nkktwa kc reality ung nkasulat s libro nia. in short, nttwa tau s rili nten. nkktuwa nga c bob ong kc mlawak ang pag iicp nia. nkkta nia ung mga bgay n pwd nman nting mkita kso nagbubulag-bulagan tau. kaso nga lng, my mga part n kalokohan tlga.. tulad nung title,..

minsan my halo ring kbas2san ung libro ni bob ong.. mejo, kso ok n rn.. reality dn nman un.

TOO MUCH for that topic. let's change.

the 20 facts about emae is still in process. ung fiction type story ay d p rn tpos.. next time n lng.. tnatmad p q at kulang s oras.. kinausap ni niya c pedro at c karla.. d q alam. ayaw q nang ibalik p lhat. pagod n q. d q n kkyanin pag nangyri uli lhat un. nttkot n q. hindi q n alam. pero. i admit. mahal q p xa. prang khit anu gwin q, xa p rn. gs2 qng ibalik pero nttkot aq. pagod aq. gs2 qng magpahinga pagktapos ng lhat ng un. hindi ko alam. hindi ko alam.
<*drama*>

as much as possible, ayoko nang pag-usapan lahat un. okey n q eh. 2matawa n q. ayokong umiyak ulit. ayokong maalala n niloko nia lng aq. tama n lhat ng un. okey n. (ang panget ng background song, "Sana Maulit Muli" by gary and Kyla..o db.. kya nga with matching tears ang post n to.) ang panget ayoko n pag usapan. tama na.

mdaming test bkas.. nwalan n q ng gana para mag iba ng topic. sabi sayo eh. pag un ung pinag usapan.. un n un.. sunod n kanta.. heaven knows ni jed madela.badtrip.
<*iyak*>
<*iyak*>
<*iyak*>
<*iyak*>
<*iyak*>
i admit. MAHAL ko p sya, pero ayaw ko n. nsasaktan lng aq pg iniicp q xa. d 2lad dti, sobrang saya. umaasa p q, khit alam kong wla n. at ang isa png fact n d q mtanggap, "d q kyang d xa mhalin." shet. ayoko ng gnito kc ang korni. pero ito ung lumalabas. Lord, help me. I'm drowning. next song, hiling by jayr siaboc.

tanging ikaw lamang ang aking iibigin..
wlang ibang hiling kundi ang yakap mo't halik.
Hindi malilimutan, mga araw natin
Kay sarap balikan
At lagi mong isipin, walang ibang mahal
Kundi ikaw

oo, umaasa p rn ako. at un ang d q matanggap ang mlamang umaasa p rn aq... at mlamang mahal q p xa.

masakit.sobra.

crap.crap.crap

mabuhay!.

haha, new layout n nman, wla lng, trip trip. currently listening to "magbalik" by callalily.. ganda nman nung song. prang its about, a relationship. ung isa sumuko n. ayaw n. pero ung isa, khit iwanan n at lhat, mtibay p rn. kinda related. kso nga lng, in a different way. mtibay p rn aq. pero ayaw qng crain ang bhay q. pero at least. db? tpos yan. cool off n ung 2gtog. ok, mganda. c yeng ung kmanta eh. and wen i say yeng, it mins "beautiful" haha. this little yeng really made her way to stardom. mgaling xa eh. composing and singing. mrami png susunod n kanta. i tunes yan eh.. puro pero favorite q n ung susunod. haha. okay. heaven knows n. mganda. xet.. *tears* haha, lam ni karla yan..

skool stories mna.. msaya. hertz. mganda kc, wla p nmang away, united lhat. and as president of that class. masaya kc wlang issue s section.(syempre, 2ndwik p lng eh!) wla c mam correa.. rejoice! pero my activity.. naabutan nmen berze dun. tpos, blin-blin para s ggwin nmen den.. okay n! psok s rum.. dun cla oliver.. tpos announcement for activity.. c oli, umalis ng rum andun n kmi. hbang nag aanounce, pause mna. usap ky oli, tpos, bye, tpos *kiss*. haha anung uri ng precdente yan? friendly kiss lng nman yon. normal.. pgktpos nun, gala time. kc friday=gala.. LOL

gala stories. pnta kmi kela xander. lrt. bmaba kmi ng blumentritt. grabe pag baba, as in wow! totoo tlga ung nsa tv, kwen2han and everything, nakakakaba, as in. kala nmen dun tlga c xander, indi p pla.. sakay p ng isang jeep. tpos, xander's haus n. thimik ung place nila, ibang iba dun s bnabaan nmen from lrt. ang mga ksama pla, karla, fonce, kent, verl, peter, xander at ako.. kain.kain. laro.laro.kwentuhan... masaya haha. and one more thing is dat nkarating aq dun ng 30 lng ang pera! nkauwi p q! haha.. mis q n ruther, sna my reunion next fri s astral... *miss*

issues. bwict dpat nung isang araw p to eh.. ngaun n lng.. haha..
fuck..

okay.
happy independence day s pilipinas... traffic s my city hall. well i don't care d nman aq dumadaan don. amf. wat is amf? according to dwight, shortcut ng ampota.. hehe. alam q n un, gs2 q lng icngit kc ung iba, d alam meaning nun.. according to my past sections, I'm the master of last minute presentations.. kc, pg aq ang leader at pinlano ang isang presentation, prang wla lng moderate.. simple. indi nman always pero most of the times gnun.. pero pag ang isang presentation, last minute gnawa, khit nung isang linggo p gnawa, successful.. hehe at un ang gnawa q knina.. not really presentations. but with assignments, review at kng anu p. ung chem, s chem lng aq nag review above the passing p.. hehe swerte..

ung assignments, gnun lng dn, mdalian. perfect p... okay. ma n pag yayabang. I know not all the people n minemention q d2 ay nbabasa q, so i'm really brave..(konti..) to name names.. past few days, i've been chatting with few ppol s fourth year.. and, the heck. they still thinks n gs2 q p ung alaga nila.. namen.. shetness.. nkakainis.. minsan 2loy gs2 qng ipabsa s knila ung buong blag ko.. amp. mrunong p cla sken. leche. well, d nman aq mamatay dun. wag n lng clang pancnin. period.

i kept on testing my former "him" no replies.. anu ng nangyri dun.. (oopss im not refering to the mascian.. its my x ok?)

------------tpos n...----------------------------

hala, pnap2gtog n ung samson. mganda tlga un! prang they translated the samson-delilah story to modern times wherein, mahal tlga nila ung isa't isa. i'll be posting my own point of view to this song, prang fiction something un.. tpos 20 facts about emae.. haha nxt tym n ha! 2log n q..

astalabyebye!!

magic flakes.

i'm currently eating magic flakes..LOL
i think that's why..
ok.. uhmm..

last friday, karla, cho and I supposed to have a date.kso wla n qng pera dat day, kya naicp qng wag sumama.bti n lng super generous ni cho and nilibre nia q.. haha (mabait tlga xa..) so, natuloy p rn kmi, ksma p nga c kirstie and loji. we went to SM Manila, dpat picture kmi eh, kso, ngutom so un kain mna... kain s food court.. kain.kain.kain. tpos nun... kwento.kwento.kwento. we went der at 3o'clock tpos, 5 n kagad.. nagkayayaan umuwi.. so un uwian n! s aming 5, c cho and loj lng ung ppntang north bound.. but cho wil tke the jeep wyl loji, lrt. so un lrt kmi s central station. haha. first time. kya mejo nanibgo kmi dun s station.

obviously, mas mlaki tlga ang central, un ata ang main station eh, ksama nmin c loji hanggang s pgbli ng card, tnuruan nia kmi, ahihi.. karla, kirstie and i n lng ang ntira.. tpos karla and i.. bmaba n c kirstie s UN eh.. un, pag uwi, rest.rest.rest.. wla nman kcng psok s monday eh...

uhmm, tpos khapon, my tita and I went to sm harrison, and bought shoes, supplies and then eat. we also visited my ate n nagwowork s max's as SV.. my nkita aqng mascian, alam q mascian kc familiar ung muka, pero d q xa kilala personally. ngulat nga aq wen he (its a he) smiled at me.. i don't know wat to react. so, smile lng dn..

last friday, i post all my favorite song, lalu n ung samson, ganda tlga nun, and my favorite part eh ung..

"you are my sweetest downfall..."

why? ask me personally and i'll tell you. masaya nman ngaun, cover n lng ng nb's and papicture bkas for the 1x1 pic. other years? these past few days, lgi qng nkakausap c kuya ronniel, francis and kuya maki... ksma n rn c ate nika and michelle n graduate n. uhmm c kuya ronniel ung nkakausap at nkkbruan all the time n nkkslubong q. c francis nman, d q kinukuya kc 14 lng un, he's turning 15 on the 25th.. d kmi nag uusap plagi ng personal, s ym lng cguro or friendster. c kuya maki nman, pag nag memeet.. pero d gnun kdalas 2lad ky kuya ronniel.uhmm about the graduate, s blogs lng..

bti n lng wlang psok bkas, relax.. happy independence day s pilipinas! nd hapi father's day s lhat ng fathers, pti s father q.. hehe labyo pa! khit nsa langit k n! hehe

you are my sweetest downfall

normal day. nothing extraordinary.

before anything else., i want to share my 10 most favorite songs..
**italized parts are my favorite..

SAMSON
-Regina Spektor

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the sheets of paper lies my truth
I have to go, I have to go
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
He ate a slice of wonder bread and went right back to bed
And history books forgot about us and the bible didn't mention us
And the bible didn't mention us, not even once

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the stars came fallin' on our heads
But they're just old light, they're just old light
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson came to my bed
Told me that my hair was red
Told me I was beautiful and came into my bed
Oh I cut his hair myself one night
A pair of dull scissors in the yellow light
And he told me that I'd done alright
And kissed me 'til the mornin' light, the mornin' light
And he kissed me 'til the mornin' light

Samson went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
Ate a slice of wonderbread and went right back to bed
Oh, we couldn't bring the columns down
Yeah we couldn't destroy a single one
And history books forgot about us
And the bible didn't mention us, not even once

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first


**uhmm.. ganda nian eh.. meaningful p... dedicated to "X" hehe >:|

HEAVEN KNOWS
-Carol Banawa

He’s always on my mind
From the time I wake up
Till I close my eyes
He’s everywhere I go
He’s all I know
Though he’s so far away
It just keeps getting stronger everyday
And even now he’s gone
I’m still holding on
So tell me, where do I start
‘Coz it’s breaking’ my heart
Don’t want to let her go

CHORUS:
Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
But only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
‘Coz heaven knows

My friends keep telling me
That if you really love him
You’ve got to set him free
And if he returns in time
I’ll know he’s mine
But tell me where do I start
‘Coz it’s breaking my heart
Don’t want to let her go

Repeat chorus except last line

BRIDGE:
‘Coz heaven knows
Why I live in despair
‘Coz wide awake or dreaming
I know he’s never there
And all the time I act so brave
I’m shaking inside
Why does it hurt me so?


**all about moving on.. mxadong madrama, pero ang ganda.. kakaiyak? cguro minsan..


HILING
-Jay-R Siaboc

Nag-iisang pag-ibing ang nais makamit
Yun ay ikaw
Nag-iisang pangako na di magbabago
Para sa ‘yo

[Refrain]
San ka man ay sana’y maalala mo
Kailan man asahan, di magkalayo

[Chorus]
Tanging ikaw lamang ang aking iibigin
Walang ibang hiling kundi ang yakap mo’t halik

Hindi malilimutan, mga araw natin
Kay sarap balikan
At lagi mong isipin, walang ibang mahal
Kundi ikaw

Malayo ka man ay sana’y maalala mo
Kailan man pangako, di magkalayo

[repeat Chorus]

[repeat Refrain]

[repeat Chorus 2x]

Tanging ikaw lamang ang aking iibigin

**aww.. don't want to explain. FUCK

I WANNA GROW OLD WITH YOU
-Adam Sandler

I wanna make you smile,
Whenever you're sad.
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad.
All I wanna do,
Is grow old with you

I'll get you medicine,
When your tummy aches.
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks.
It would be so nice,
Growin' old with you

I'll miss you, kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold.
Need you, feed you.
I'll even let you hold the remote control
So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink
Oh I could be the man,
Who grows old with you

I wanna grow old with you.

**xet. favorite.. he wanna grow old with her. DAMN. FUCK

ON BENDED KNEE

-Boyz 2 men

Darling I, I can't explain,
Where did we lose our way,
'Girl it's driving me insane.
And I know I just need one more chance,
To prove my love to you.
And if you come back to me,
I'll guarantee,
That I'll never let you go.

CHORUS:
Can we go back to the days
Our love was strong.
Can you tell me how
A perfect love goes wrong.
Can somebody tell me
How to get things back,
The way they used to be.
Oh God, give me the reason,
I'm down on bended knee.

B-SECTION:
I'll never walk again,
Until you come back to me,
I'm down on bended knee.

So many nights I dream of you.
Holding my pillow tight I know,
That I don't need to be alone.
When I open up my eyes,
To face reality,
Every moment without you,
It seems like eternity.
I'm begging you, begging you come back to me.

REPEAT CHORUS.

MIKE:
Baby, I'm sorry,
Please forgive me for all the wrong I've done.
Please come back home girl.
I know you put all your trust in me,
I'm sorry I let you down.
Please forgive me.

I'm gonna swallow my pride,
Say I'm sorry,
Stop pointing fingers,
The blame is on me.
I want a new life,
And I want it with you.
If you feel the same,
Don't ever let it go.
You gotta believe in the spirit of love,
It will heal all things,
Won't hurt any more.
No I don't believe our love's terminal.
I'm down on my knees,
Begging you please,
Come home.

REPEAT CHORUS TWICE.

REPEAT BRIDGE.

Wanna build a new life,
Just you and me.
Gonna make you my wife,
Raise a family.

REPEAT BRIDGE.

**I am very pathetic.. xet. just forget about it.

HIMALA
-Yeng Constantino feat. Jay-R Siaboc

Pangarap ko’y makita kang
Naglalaro sa buwan
Inalay mo sa akin ang
Gabing walang hangganan

[Refrain]
(Hindi mahanap/’di mahagilap) sa lupa ang pag-asa
Nakikiusap (na lang/sa buwan)

[Chorus]
Himala, kasalanan bang
Humingi ako sa langit ng isang himala
Kasalanan bang
Humingi ako sa langit ng isang himala

Pangarap ko’y makita ang
Liwanag ng umaga
Naglalambing sa iyong mga mata

[repeat Refrain and Chorus]

[repeat Refrain and Chorus]

**OPM Love.. yeng is talented.. no wonder.

BECAUSE OF YOU

-Kelly Clarkson

will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

**Ask karla, she knows why..(we have the same reason. haha!)

NGITI

-Ronnie Liang

Minamasdan kita
Nang hindi mo alam
Pinapangarap kong ikaw ay akin
Mapupulang labi
At matinkad mong ngiti
Umaabot hanggang sa langit

Huwag ka lang titinginsa akin
At baka matunaw ang puso kong sabik

[Chorus]
Sa iyong ngiti ako'y nahuhumaling
At sa tuwing ikaw ay gagalaw
Ang mundo ko'y tumitigil
Para lang sayo
Ang awit ng aking puso
Sana'y mapansin mo rin
Ang lihim kong pagtingin

Minamahal kita ng di mo alam
Huwag ka sanang magagalit
Tinamaan yata talaga ang aking puso
Na dati akala ko'y manhid

Hindi pa rin makalapit
Inuunahan ng kaba sa aking dibdib

[Chorus]
Sa iyong ngiti ako'y nahuhumaling
At sa tuwing ikaw ay lalapit
Ang mundo ko'y tumitigil
Ang pangalan mo sinisigaw ng puso
Sana'y madama mo rin
Ang lihim kong pagtingin

Sa iyong ngiti ako'y nahuhumaling
(Sa iyong ngiti)
Sa tuwing ikaw ay gagalaw
Ang mundo ko'y tumitigil
Para lang sa'yo...
(Para lang sa'yo ang awit ng aking puso)
Sana ay mapansin mo rin...
Ang lihim kong pagtingin
Sa iyong ngiti...

**OPM Love.. la lng, qte eh


AKO'Y SAYO
-First circle

Ikaw na ang may sabi
Na ako'y mahal mo rin
At sinabi mong ang pag-ibig mo'y
di-magbabago.

Ngunit bakit sa tuwing ako'y lumalapit
Ika'y lumalayo
Puso'y laging nasasaktan pag may kasama
kang iba
Di ba nila alam
Tayo'y nag-sumpaan
Na Ako'y sa'yo at ika'y akin lamang

Refrain
Kahit ano pa ang mangyari pag-ibig
ko'y sa'yo pa rin
At kahit ano pa ang sabihin nila'y
Ikaw pa rin... Ang mahal . . .
Maghihintay ako kahit kailan
Kahit na umabot pang ako'y nasa
langit na
At kung di ka nakita makikiusap kay Bathala
Na ika'y hanapin, at sabihin
Ipaalala sa iyo ang nakalimutang sumpaan
Na ako'y sa'yo at ika'y akin lamang. . .

Umasa kang maghihintay ako kahit kailan
Kahit na umabot pang ako'y
nasa langit na
At kung di ka makita makikiusap kay Bathala
Na ika'y hanapin, at sabihin
Ipaalala sa iyo ang nakalimuatan sumpaan
Na ako'y sa'yo at ika'y akin lamang . . . . .

**don't wanna explain.

DON'T MATTER

-AKON

Konvict Konvict
Oh
Ohoohwooe
Oooh
Ooohhwooe

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
We gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you

Nobody wanna see us together
Nobody thought we'd last forever
I feel I'm hopin' and prayin'
Things between us don't get better
Men steady comin' after you
Women steady comin' after me
Seem like everybody wanna go for self
And don't wanna respect boundaries
Tellin' you all those lies
Just to get on your side
But I must admit there was a couple secrets
I held inside
But just know that I tried
To always apologize
And I'ma have you first always in my heart
To keep you satisfied

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
We gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you

Got every right to wanna leave
Got every right to wanna go
Got every right to hit the road
And never talk to me no more
You don't even have to call
Even check for me at all
Because the way I been actin' lately
Has been off the wall
Especially toward you
Puttin' girls before you
And they watchin' everything I been doin'
Just to hurt you
Most of it just ain't you
Ain't true
And they won't show you
How much of a queen you are to me
And why I love you baby

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
We gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you

Oh oh oh oh oh
Cause I got you
Cause I got you
Ooooh
Cause I got you babe
Cause I got you

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
We gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you babe
Cause we gon' fight
Oh yes we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
We gon' fight
Fight for our right to love yeah
Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter no
Cause I got you

**ganda.ganda.related.

i want a irregular, normal role..

wat a day..

ds day, compared to other days, is better.. haha.. more fun, less pressure. kso, d aq nkpglunch, gawa gawa kc ng hw.. stay s canteen w/ karla.. kwentuhan, gwa hw.. nothing extraordinary happened. uhmm, let me see... math, ok lng masaya, nkakaantok.. i think dhil un s indi q pag lulunch.. hilohilo n nga aq eh.. the, diagnostic test.. antaas ng boys, talo kmi... filipino n ata sunod, my kaagaw kmi s rum, i guess, franklin cla.. adun c francis eh.. at xa ung nkausap q about nga dun s rum.. haha.. nkktwa reaction nun knina.. nd i think, funny tlga xa. uhmm. *opinion.*

tpos d q n alam sunod, bsta cs ung huli, msaya nman w/ ms. aniban.. ingay nga lng ni jedd, xander at peter n mga ktabi q.. tpos uwian, pupunta sna q ng rob kso wlang ksama, suppose to be, dpat c thad, kso d rn smama, un c pred n lng.. nga pla, tenkyu pred for accompanying me.. hehe.. 8 n q umuwi.. mas maaga c pred pnauwi q n prang nagmamadli kc.. knina i hav to choose between an expensive binder o mumurahin.. kya p nman ng budget q, kya lng i really want to save kya ung mumurahin n lng... kso, nagpkita sken ang weakness q, ZAGU kaya un, ubos p rn ang pera q..

i'll just transfer my notes n lng.. hayyzz.. exhausted.. mejo lng nman.. wakoko..

tears and sweat

second day..

damn its a f*ucking day.. nkakainis.. there's nothing wrong pgdting dun s pagmeet ng teachers.. pero isa s nkk2wa c sir Arcilla.. haha, prang wla lng, kakaiba tlga ung teacher n yon. he hates mabuhay! n suppose to be eh greeting nmen s knya.. ayaw nia rn ng Thank You Mr. Arcilla.. nangingilabot dw xa dun.. haha kulet tlga..

tpos un.. chem.. den lunch.. math..then..T.H.E. Cauzon n NMAN kmi ni xander, jera at peter.. hayyzz... d nman nkkswa.. pero.. wla lng,..tpos TW, masaya ky sir apejas.. para kng n ky sir garcia.. mas nkk2wa lng ng konti c ginoo.. tpos fil.. tpos trigo.. tpos abr.. at last.. CS, compaired to last years CS, mas ok nman un ngaun. well OBVIOUS nman eh.. hehe

peste, tambak kagad homeworks.. tpos responsibilities p.. aww.. umiiyak n q pag uwi.. d q alam anu uunahin.. andmi kc expectations pag pres. dpat gnito, dpat gnyan.. nkakainis! umiiyak 2loy aq knina maga mata q.. ay nako.. pag my nakaalam nito, ttwanan aq.. nkakainis nman tlga kc.. gabi p q umuwi, usap d2, usap doon.. s quad, canteen, mercury at kung san san p! pra nmang aq lng tao s mundo no! bti nga c dhea at ung ibang officers ung gmagwa ng iba, well nga pla.. tenkyu beri much s dun s mga un, d q n imemention ung name, dmi eh.. tpos knina s quad, epal c peter.. pnalapit c tim kng anu ano pnagssbi.. bti sna kng nkk2wa.. pnalapit p.. bti sna kng xa ggwa ng iba qng ggwin, n2wa p q.. d q n kc crush un, nggwapuhan, cguro.. pero crush or anythng, wala, wla tlga.. naiinis tlga q ky peter, bka kc kung anu ano n iniicp nun ngaun.. pero feeling q d nman gnun un eh...

hayy.. lrt kmi ni karla, baba aq s vito cruz pnta s national.. dun s my taft.. mejo mlaki.. uhmmm cguro tma lng.. kulang dala q.. kaya un blik s bhay.. wlang mhingan ng pera, dmatng c kua.. so un hingi.. bgay ng 500.. pntang harrison, sarado!.. national sarado! at kung san san p.. sarado n lhat.. 930 n hlos kc un.. iyak tga q grabe.. bti nagvolunteer mama q, pnta dw xa s skul b4 third period.. bti n lng.. ang haba ng iyak q.. d nman tlga iiyak dpat eh, kso nagsma kc pgod at pressure.. un. iyak.. and feeling q, naiinis tlga aq s pgkkprecdnte q.. kso, bwal mag impeach ng srili.. hayyz... stress..




woi.!


HELP!!!



TULONG!!!

first day sucks!

oh yeah...
first day sucks.. really!
Its not about the sched or anything..
as a matter of fact, irregular classes p lng.. tambay lng s homeroom, orientation and everything..
HERTZ ako, and i don't know why the hell are we in the maceda bldg. dun ang homeroom nmen with the seniors, of course. faraday s my right, english dept. s left chaka ung isa png senior section... section nila francis un eh.. d q nga lng ntanong kng ano..


well, its really ok der.. with faraday, ok lng xe, andun c kuya ronniel and my ex crush.. well, speaking of kuya ronniel, he keeps on telling me his "gudlucks" and "go for it hertzies!".. hertz kc xa dti kya gnun.. naalala q p nga, nsa loob ng room buong faraday,(including my xc) xa dn nsa loob.. tpos, smigaw ng malakas.. "JEREMAE!!" nagtnginan 2loy ung buong faraday.. tpos sbi.."wla lng gudluck..." smile n lng aq... and for my ex crush.. sayang, ngaun q lng nktbi ng homeroom, sna dti n lng.. 7-8 wlang teacher, so, tambay.. kwen2han..


c kepler people lge q ksama nung una.. ay nako, sora and jedd kept on joking me n pangulo dw aq.. i just ignored dem knowing n joke lng nman un... after quite some time, dmating dn c mam de leon.. adviser nmen, d n q nhirapan n mkipgsundo with her.. gabay kc aq nung 2nd yr, kya un, magkakilala n kmi.. den here comes the election.. shitness.. i thought they were just joking about it.. ngulat ako..

"the table is now open for the nominations for president.. any nomunations.."
"i nominate blah-blah..(d q n maalala eh..)"
"nominations?"
"i nominate blah-blah..(d q dn maalala eh..)"
"others?"
"i nominate jeremae..."
"huh? watda?! g*go! kala ko nagbibiro k lng..."
"hehe k lng yan..."
"anu b nkakahiya.. wlang boboto sken.. shit tlga anu b kc?"
"anu b? go 4 it!"
"nkkhiya.. wlang boboto.."

tpos votation n.. (jeremae n kagad ha.. d q n kc matandaan eh...)
"one, two, three,..."
"wag n blangin! obvious pnalo n.. haha landslide k ahh"-peter
"g*go peter.. "

so un.. the fucking president of my eber-labing section... shitness the hell. nkakainis. well, honestly, i realy hate responsibility.. balak q p nmang magpkgc tpos tambak trabaho dhil dun.. kso namn its pretty too late para magreact.. tpos n eh.. anu p? tpos un meeting..meeting..

dhil nga irregular p.. 2o'clock ang uwian..
karla, cho, venise, rose anne and I went to mcdonald's kain, kwento..
at andun c pred at dhea.. kwento uli cla ni karla.. how sad...

well un lng mna..
babay!