Friday, May 30, 2014


Our travel buddy's photo. Exactly what we saw at the peak. ;)

One of those moments

What do we really miss when we say I miss you?

Do we miss that person's weird physical features that only you noticed? Do you miss that person's slips, laughs and cute little antics? Do you miss that person's voice, that person's arms, that person's hugs?

Maybe yes, maybe, no. Maybe what you missed is how you reacted when he looks at you. How you get tingles every time he does things to impress you. How you feel cared for when he's protective of you, valued when he gives efforts for you and how happy you were when he's around.

Maybe what you missed is what you feel when you're together. Not the person, but the feeling you have when you were at the verge of happiness when you were with him. Maybe he represents your happiness, your hopes, your aspirations. And you don't have any of those right now that's why you say you miss him, that person.

Maybe it's not him that you missed. Maybe it's you. The better you. The better version of yourself who made him do everything you say you miss of him.


Bodily Kaartehan

So since we went home from Baguio, I never had a decent work day. The three of us were sick since Monday (we follow US Holiday), I was on SL last Tuesday, went to office last Wednesday but am sent home and finally, medical leave yesterday and today. The three of us are having the same condition, slight fever and a sick stomach. Only, (I think) mine was worse since I really can't stand the pain attacks.

I've been diagnosed with hyperacidity last week and now, this. I've been feeling a lot of things I don't want to feel the past two weeks and the only thing I do is rest and hope it'll just go away. The food I am eating has been reduced to one-fourth of what I regularly eat and now, I live with gatorade and oats.

There's a lot of things in my head, a lot of wishful thinking actually, that tomorrow, I won't feel any pain and I'd go my normal day but this seems to tell me another. To stop and review what have I been doing, and maybe, remember what I am forgetting.

Hope I am better tomorrow though.

Monday, May 26, 2014

Awesome threesome



My first ever legit trekking and camping activity. No regrets the whole trip. Super glad I made it with these two! These were the first pictures before the climb.

Sunday, May 04, 2014

Testing my blogger mobile and sad because it seems that I can't post pictures through mobile or I haven't figured it out yet.
Testing my blogger mobile

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Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Just another email...

just another email I received today

Yeahhhh! Fruits of labor. This is so sweet. Hihihi.


So I must admit that once in my life, I've been one of those anonymous tumblr users venting and getting pleasure anonymously. And yes, today, I must say goodbye to a part of me I don't know if I'll meet again.

Monday, April 28, 2014

Quickie

Almost two weeks of not updating = extreme ups and downs.

So last holy week, like what we do every year, Noli and I and our group of friends did the Visita Iglesia. And unlike the past years, we didn't take any photo of ourselves or the churches we went to. Apparently, we were busy bashing people we walk with, or people we just wanted to bash--so appropriate for the season. I missed the bunch, consists mostly of my favorite people in Kampi: Lejoy, Jobelle, Kam, Job, of course, Noli and another person from Kampi, RJ. As I mentioned no pictures that night.

The walk was quite fast, we finished 14 churches in 2 hours. I know, amazing. We ate afterwards, where I knew everybody prayed for my lovelife to finally exists. Haha. Good friends.

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Spent the Black Saturday with Brevs and Aeron in Villa Escudero. It was quite an unexpected trip since we're too bored to just stay at home. Funny things happened like, the agreement is to meet at 7 at the bus station. But since we're all excited of the trip (since none of us has visited the place already) we're still awake by 3am and decided to meet at that moment instead.

We arrived there at around 8am and enjoyed what we saw. It really is a place for nature-lovers and families. Very serene and very nice.

Just because this is picturesque. Naks


Always the best part

Bunch of selfies in the place

We even availed of the pictures taken by the
photographers in the place

We (they) did some rafting, swimming and of course, eating. We decided to leave at around 6pm. Hih.

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April 22 is mom's birthday. Since all of the sibs (except a sister and I) went to Cavite for vacation, I just had a wonderful date with mama. We watched Da Possessed (she likes Vhong! no choice!) and ate after. I went to the office after the date while mama went to kuya's house since kuya gave her a small celebration.

Le birthday girl (kuya's house)

They're partying while I'm working. What is unfair

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Went to Cavite last weekend for the clan's thanksgiving party. Three of my cousins graduated from college and my youngest sister graduated from High School. Of course, my friendly ex is there, together with the whole family. The event consists of eating and eating and eating. Surprisingly, there's very few amount of alcohol so we were not really intoxicated the whole time.

I went home Monday morning but got to talk to Louie the night before. Well, that should be on another post.

(Okay, too many updates. last one.)

So it's the monthly townhall yesterday and guess what, my team just won the dress your manager contest and we won GCs! Whoooo! Also, I am recognized by my manager as a, you know, performer. HAHA. But yeah, got GCs for that too! :))



So, yeah. that's how my two weeks went. And apparently, this is not a quickie.


Wednesday, April 16, 2014

1st year of working today! Whooo!!!

I can't believe I've been sitting here in my workstation for a year now. I can't believe that exactly a year ago, I was fetch in the 21st floor of Solaris Building, all ideal and hopeful. And I can't believe I'm still here. Ha. Kidding. Happy to realize where ever I am now and whatever I got after my first year. Whoo, hooray to the next years!

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

What if you're friends with someone you really like. A true relationship where you're happy when he's happy and you're sad when he's sad. The kind that does not envy others because you know who makes him happy. The kind that is free from lies and pains. The kind that worries, cares and protects.

What would you do? What would you do if he's going through something and you can't do anything about it? What if you've been itching to make him feel alright but you know it won't do much?

I just need to know you're okay. And I just need you to realize I'm here.

Monday, April 14, 2014

#bettertogether

Photo obviously grabbed from someone's (aka Brevs) instagram.

Because no matter how much time I spend in the office, working, they keep me sane (and insane, sometimes). Since I do not express myself most of the time and I know you guys googled this blog, let me just say that I love you both. :)

Thursday, April 10, 2014

Time of the month

Maybe it's just because it's the time of the month. But, I am not in the mood to work. I am not in the mood to socialize with people and I am not in the mood to eat. I just want to stay at home, read my book, eat with my family then sleep. This is one of those times when I wonder why my life is so uneventful, even though I've been to a lot of places the past few days.

Speaking of, I took a leave (again) yesterday. We follow the US holiday so yesterday is normally a working day. Papa's death anniversary is on the 12th but since people were available yesterday, I had to adjust. We just cleaned his place since he's in a public cemetery in a far place in Batangas. We spent almost the whole day there before we went to my relatives' place.

Anyway, I had the chance to take a picture of my hair and as promised here it is:

It looked like violet and orange under
the sun. :|

hashtag nofilter and look how weird it is
I feel so not myself today. Since I got to take my leaves, I became less energetic about work. I always look forward to vacations like this, getting away with everything. Well, I just really want to get away.

Ending this post with this picture
because I don't know why mama's always
awkward in our pictures together.


Monday, April 07, 2014

Photodump: Weekend

So since I had a fantastic weekend, I felt the need to update this blog.

For the first time after all the OTs this 2014, I took a vacation leave last Friday. We first went to Quiapo to have my glasses fixed. I was also thinking of changing my frames, but since I just got my frame last February, changing of frames was postponed. Heh.

Summer, yo.
We went to Dasmariñas and I don't want to travel at that time of the day again. I'm guessing the car's air-conditioning unit is working double time because of the heat outside.

I know this is creepy, but I love the sunset in Manila Memorial Park.

"You know--one loves the sunset, when one is so sad . . ."  
Well, I love sunsets in general, more than the sunrise. And yes, currently I am so sad (though I still love it even if I'm not). We went to our house in GMA after the visit and the highlight of the day is that I got a very nice massage. Hihihi.

Lahh
The next day is my oldest tito's birthday. Kind of a surprised party so we celebrated it in their store.

Because this one's mandatory.

Because we're not kids anymore.

Because I just woke up. Don't mind the sunnies, was playing with the kids before this photo. Heh

My cousin and I watched Captain America after and I don't think taking a picture of the movie ticket is necessary. We weren't able to do selfies with the 3D goggles though.

Later that day my cousins decided to have an unexpected midnight swimming that night. And yes, despite the very cold weather in Cavite at night, we went swimming. Whoo!





We arrived at around 12mn and went home at 5am.  Sayang, drinking wasn't allowed at the resort so, yeah. We spent the night swimming and singing and eating. Of course, the rest is the story of how tired we are.

Sunday morning (afternoon really but we just woke up so it's still morning), I had my hair colored. The goal is to have the upper half of my hair colored reddish brown and the lower half sunset red (that's orange-ish-red) But since my hair is so stubborn, the upper part looked like super dark red-violet and the lower half, dark orange-ish-red. I haven't had my hair selfie yet so I'll put up another post for that (yes, because it's necessary) I'd have my hair colored again if it does not improve within the week.

I went back to Manila after but I went directly to work I was just afraid of long-weekend-Monday Monday and checked my email. Surprisingly, I am happy I made this decision. There was a looooot of emails. Ugh.

Visited this handsome boy after work.

Went home after my visit and rested, it was a wonderful and tiring weekend.



Monday, March 31, 2014

Malus Dies

I wish my mom would just allow me to stock a Jack in the house. Well, actually, Emperador or Gin Bulag will do. This is just so when bad days like this comes, I can just drown myself with a glass or two, then die. I mean sleep. Because it's the truth--no matter how positive and reasonable we try to be, bad days will come, and it will be so bad we don't have any choice but to accept defeat.

And, well, maybe, wake up the next morning because it is a new beginning, a brand new chance to make it up for the bad days.

(What the hell. Because I don't feel like saying that line)
It's a bad day when something failed and you know it's a total miss. makes me think if I'm still doing what I really want.

Sunday, March 30, 2014

 

I'll never say that I'll never love. But I don't say a lot of things, and you, my love, are gone.

For the next month...

Movies to watch:



Friday, March 28, 2014

Then I remembered how he looked like.

Maybe I was in love on how he loved her.
How he was crazy about her.
How he just stares at her, smiling.

How he sees his mornings with her.
His lunch, dinner.
How he needed her in his arms on a lazy evening.

Maybe I was in love on how he was there on her weaknesses
And how he he just smiled from afar for her strengths.
How he accepts whoever she is, when he even can't recognize her.
And protect her, even if he doesn't know from where.

Maybe I am in love, with love.
With how true and pure it can be.
With how it changes a person
Or unleash how amazing we can be





Monday, March 24, 2014

Disorganized thoughts.

Besides the mass hiring of this company that comes with heavy workload for me (which I still weirdly enjoy), the OTs, the non-existent weekends, and the people I work with (aka people I spend my 24/7 with) what I love about my job now is not even my job description.

Our GM changed last November 2013. He was former Operations Manager of an account in the company blah blah blah. Let's skip the technicals because that's boring. So anyway, he is my manager's best friend that means Brevs, Aeron and I always go out with him on weekends. This is at some point cool, because heyyyyy! I am with a very big company's GM whooo! But at most times, not. We talk about work, and work, and work--which a Friday night is not supposed to be.

I like him though. He's the charismatic type, I guess. He reminds me so much of people I met in college. People who are ideal, passionate and reflective. People who I always love to talk to.

So guess what, I am now telling you what I love about my work now.

He asks me to write his speeches, his scripts at conferences, his email to this company's bosses. Of course he won't mention that I composed those speeches, but to hear your words spoken to a lot of people, your words reaching people you know will not just casually talk to you, and that small connection you have with your boss because you know what he wants and you know you can give it--

Making his speeches was like writing my thesis last year. I know how it will go, I can explain it, and defend it, but I cannot write it. I can say it better than I put it on paper. I can visualize it, but i cannot write it. And maybe I am enjoying what I am doing right now because it gives me the thought that I have finally overcome this weakness. That finally, I can organize my thoughts.

Hmm. I'm stopping here.

Friday, March 21, 2014

Divergent!!!! (because exclamation points are necessary)

So we watched Divergent last night. Yes, on its first day. I can't remember when I began liking Utopian kind of movies the same way I can't remember when I started loving to read.

Anyway, the movie’s really great, from the perspective of someone who read the book. It is really faithful; except for the little details they changed which I’m sure is done for the movie’s sake. I like how everything is how I imagined it while reading the book; the set-up, the characters (except for Cristina whom we expected to be blonde) and even the camera angles! I like that Tris is Shailene Woodley and that Theo James is Four (my god I am in love with this man).

It’s also funny how Miles Teller is in that movie. He almost killed Shailene on Divergent when he just had sex with her on The Spectacular Now. ANDDD, Ansel Elgort is Shailene’s brother in Divergent when they’ll be having sex in The Fault in Our Stars!

Okay, that’s supposed to be funny. And not about sex. Um.

However, the quantity of audience last night was not what I expected. Maybe I’m such a fan because I expected the movie house to be jam-packed with people, jeje or not. But, I realized that that’s how book-turned-movies movies start: they are initially judged by the book readers, and when it turns out to be really good, we know what happens next.

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We’re about to go home when a traffic enforcer asked us to stop because the taxi driver violated a traffic sign. You know how it goes so we just paid how much was in the meter and decided to eat when we saw McDonald’s.  That’s how planned our lives are.

We stayed until early early morning talking about love, work and life in general which pretty much sums up the issues we’re currently facing now.


So uh. Awkwardly ending this post. Updates next time. This is a long and heavy day. Chowders. 

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

There was me. And then your shadow. And then my empty heart. I know you were never responsible for whatever this heart is going through right now, but there was me. Your shadow. And my empty heart.

And I will wait 'til you come, or 'til this is gone.

"You identify yourself with your job"

And if you're satisfied with it, you are satisfied with yourself. So in the name of overtimes, sleepless nights, non-existent social and love life, I am telling all the stress and pressure to go away.